Getting a different point of view…

17 02 2010

I can’t help but to ask questions about why things  are the way they are. A friend told me she doesn’t know why things are the way they are. Another told me that our lives are predestined because of our genetics. Sometimes there is an exception, they say that the human brain is still a mystery. I am still a mystery to myself.

How am I able to write music? Where does that come from? Why do I hear melodies in my head. Why do I have to keep doing what I’m doing. There are a lot of things I have to fight for on a daily basis but sometimes I just want to stop trying. I try so hard but I don’t know where I am going. I try to make sense of a lot of things and sometimes I just want to give up.

I want to thank my friends for being there for me. In happiness and in tough times. Thank you.





The President and Rick Astley

30 01 2010

Facebook has a funny way of putting you back on memory lane. The fact is when I see all those people that I know but no longer in touch with.  It validates that  I really don’t have anything in common with them. They used to know me, I used to know them but other than that, I feel that they were lucky enough to be around me. I’m having a bit of a vain moment… just let me be 🙂

I was watching MSNBC at the gym a few hours ago and there was this really interesting question to the president. A lot of it actually was more like statements or assumptions that this current administration had increased the unemployment rate from the last year. The president had responded in a very comprehensive way.  I’m not really big on politics, but if you’re going to ask a question, make sure you don’t embarrass yourself on national television.  I have also been tweeting a lot about this whole Democrat Republican business. I personally think they should just all get along and solve this ridiculous crisis.  Enough with the … well your stimulus plan didn’t work so try ours. Really? I thought you guys were all smarter than a bag of chips.

So I did mention I got some tapes from Goodwill and I picked up a Rick Astley album. Why do people dislike him? I don’t think his songs were that bad hahaha. I remember it was such a big hit when I was in 6th grade, or maybe 5th. I always sing along when I hear this song.





Thinking about what life has to offer…

28 01 2010

Become a Millionaire next month. I just saw those exact words from an ad and I’m wondering why isn’t everyone a millionaire already. In these times it’s hard enough for most people to deal with this economic crisis and I would have to tell you straight from the source that being a musician is not much different either. Around the world, we were somehow taught that if you aspire to be in entertainment whether it’s going to be singing or acting, it is not something that one should pursue realistically. Of course this is not true for the very tiny percentage of people that had made it. But in my case I was raised to believe that I should have been a pediatrician.

Little kids are awesome in making up things, their imagination is free and innocent. Somehow I wish I didn’t know too much of the world we live in, it would have been better that way. I was at a store recently and I saw a shirt that says somewhere along the lines of “My career options were better when I was 6 “. It just made me laugh because to really think about it, you could be whatever you want to be. But Life isn’t perfect and one may have too much of one thing but lack another.

While watching the Tyra show today, I didn’t even know where to begin to assess the feelings I had for the world. It was about transgendered kids as little as 7.  It is normal to reject an idea that is something entirely new but to judge kids or parents or people how they should live or think or be a certain way is just something else. It’s one of things that you have to really treat with compassion. I wonder where I got my open-mindedness. I am sure that it is a number of events that had happened to me as I grow into the man that I am now.

I am really getting the hang of writing a blog regularly aside from my myspace account and there are a lot of things I still want to share, but I think that’s all for tonight. Don’t judge the book by its cover.





A gloomy Tuesday afternoon…

26 01 2010

There are times when I tell myself not to read my horoscope because even though it is purely for entertainment I tend to believe that there is a connection between me and the stars above.  I also know good people that are more in touch with metaphysics than others. I don’t really know where this is going but I thought it’s a good time right now to write a blog. I haven’t really seen a lot of television lately except for the shows that I follow and I watch them on Hulu. I might visit the closest Barnes and Noble in an hour or so just to browse on different reading material. I am really enjoying blogging right now.

I was never a big reader. I always liked text books where I can get a lot of exciting information. Novels bore me. It’s funny that I like regular school text books where I know exactly what I’m reading.  I also like picture books because I appreciate a good and interesting photograph. I like Music books of course, I like to see concert photos and random pics of famous people.

I had another strange dream today. It seems like a continuation of previous dreams. I only clearly remember it right after I wake up then forget about it. But it seems like there is this other person that I communicate with and we are trying to escape from something. There is a hidden passage where we go and it just starts off so quickly. The entrance is in a wall and then I go there and I’m not sure if I was able to make it or not. I’m not sure if he was able to make it or not either. It just goes on. Dreams are so interesting. I don’t remember something that has this kind of continuity but I guess that’s something I should look forward to. The thing is I don’t know when it is going to happen again.





Celebrating “Voyage” 01-25-2010

25 01 2010

If  you go on iTunes and search for Monsieur Vampland you will find that today is the 1st year anniversary of my baby “Voyage”. I’ve made some new friends making this record. I have also seen the true colors among the people that I know. I have seen the support of friends old and new. But most of all, I have made my dream come true.

I didn’t really think I was able to do this but because of my persistence and signs from the universe, I feel that this was the path I should take. Every time I listen to the album I remember the hard work I have given to it. I am very proud of it and also very excited that people want more. They’ve wanted more ever since they heard the songs “Fly Again Bonjour”, “Close To Me”, “Another Friend” or “Someone New”.

Writing songs and making records just became a part of my life. Music has always been a part of me. In fact, without it I would probably be a very different person. My dream does not stop here. This is one of the priceless things I can do for the world. It would have been a sin not to utilize the talent that was given to me.

“Voyage” just turn 1 year old. Thank you for all your love and support. The new album “Crème” coming soon.





Writing

23 01 2010

How wonderful that blogging has been invented. I feel somewhat at peace with myself when I talk about the things that linger in my head. Thankful to the friends that I have that support and believe in me. I would have really done this a long time ago with wordpress but I was hesitant because of the fact that I would get attach with another website and so on and so forth. However, I do realize that not all people are interested in the same thing as I do. Not everyone tweets like me, or posts links on myspace or facebook.

In the next album I am working on after “Crème”, I wrote a song about the year 2100. Part of the lyrics is, What can I do…to you? It’s a question just like any other. A curious thought of what would we be doing as a form of communicating with each other. Also most importantly how are we going to be listening to music. Before CD’s were so popular I listened to the radio. It was pretty obvious that the DJs music played was in some sort of a list that they have to follow because I noticed that the most popular song would play at the same time in the afternoon.

I loved the radio but I also loved Television. I guess I’m trying to peek into the future and ask questions about the form of media we will be using. In the past 10 years, we have been introduced to the mp3 players and as we can all see CD’s are almost completely gone. The production of compact discs in my case is not lucrative at all. I am reaching out more on the web. I have noticed that people that really want to get to know me more can visit the websites I am on, as opposed to going to a record store because there are hardly any at this point.

I remember when I would hunt down the Tower Records on Sunset blvd in West Hollywood for rare maxi singles and imports. Spent hours at the other Tower Records in Long Beach too. Now, there’s Amoeba which is kind of fun to visit but I don’t like the parking situation in Hollywood. Talking about parking in L.A. I absolutely hate it.

I don’t think our bodies are designed to be sitting in the car for hours just to travel a few miles. I do understand it’s the city. But traveling from point A to point B in L.A. feels like it’s going to injure me. It’s stressful, not to mention the high rates of parking in downtown and the ridiculous no left turn rules from 4pm to 7pm in some areas of Hollywood and West Hollywood. Oh yeah they are there, and you have to be a psychic about it. I have paid over $1000 in the past just for parking tickets. I used to live literally 2 blocks from Paramount Studios and even though I have the privilege to see the Hollywood sign when I walk down the street, I have left that way of living.

Hollywood, the entertainment industry, the media, that’s all within me. I have been L.A. before I moved to L.A. is what one of my friends tell me. I did have the greatest luck to find the people that I have really learned to love and that love me back in this city. This is very rare. People that usually move to Los Angeles are here for reasons of stardom and there are millions of people that you have to rise above to let your light shine. Maybe it is all fate after all.

Talking about fate I always feel like I’m in a debate about what people say. If something goes wrong people say, “Everything happens for a reason”, but when everything goes right, people say “It was meant to be” like it is your fate or destiny. Then another is “You make your own destiny”. Quite honestly, that doesn’t really fly in my book. That’s just all so contradictory to me. I would love to see a panel of people debate on these expressions and find out which of the three they truly believe is the real deal. But then again, this is life and all three can all be taken in consideration because we live in unpredictability.

C’est la vie.





Je suis

23 01 2010

As  I go through the daily ups and downs of life,  I can’t help but to always think about what had happened, what is now happening and what is going to happen. That is by the way the true meaning and  essence of  Vampland. It would take a while to start in the very beginning so I will just blog about what is going on because it is inevitable that I will go back and forth about my past, present and the future.

Today, I got some awesome news from CDBABY that they are going to give $1 for every CD sold to the Haiti Relief so I have tweeted about it and  also entered information on Facebook.  On Monday, January 25th, 2010 marks the 1st year anniversary of the “Voyage” album. A project that has been really close to me because I have worked so hard on it for 4 long years and it holds so much meaning and history.

I have learned so much about myself over the years as well as being in the music business. I’m glad that in the internet age, people have the opportunity to do things like release an album without the help of a major label. I feel that my music has reached so many people around the world and this is by my never ending pursuit to get it out there.

Crème should be due in the summer maybe earlier. I am still waiting for the right time to work with the right people for the album cover. I can also say that I am waiting for me in so many levels. I always have an abundance of ideas for creative work and this is something that I feel very blessed about. I didn’t choose to be this way, I just remember to always seem to be in my invisible space as a child. I’m sure people thought of me as different, there are times when I don’t understand myself and I do my own psychoanalysis.

Someone told me once that I want to convince people to think like me but I think that is such a false accusation. I don’t want people to think like me then what would the world be like. A part of me is always in dream land. I am very capable of accomplishing things that I put my mind into. However, it won’t be as exciting if everyone was just like me.

Je suis Monsieur Vampland